So, I started reading my old comments =/ & ohh the pain fucking kills me to the bone. We used to be so happy together.. How could this happen between us.. Baby, the pain just keeps on coming.. You told me I will always have a place in your heart.. then why arent I having all of your heart. You say you miss it, but I bet thats just a phase. CAUSE OBVIOUSLY, if you missed it as much as you say, you wouldve left her a long time ago. ECKS. ALLLL of this, is just so hard for me. Its so hard being your friend.. But. I’m dealing with it, only because I love you.

People say you looked happier when you were with me =/ And.. I see it too. I guess. But what the heck. Everything is just so confusing,

I miss it when you used to comment me all the time. =/ Random moments. Even when I got my computer taken away. Our comment wars when we’d write random stuff that used to always put  a smile on my face no matter what. & then when we used to leave long ones at the end that put double smiles. I miss it when you used to always remind me when our anniversary was coming up. It was always cute.. Everytime =/ I miss it how you used to always tell me goodmorning or goodnight and have all these weird names for me.

I MISS BEING WITH YOU, period.. )=

I think, my only regret in our whole relationship, is not spending it to the fullest. All the times, we just sat there, cause we were bored. All the times we ran out of things to say, all of the times i ignored you cause I was mad,all the times we couldve talked on the phone, but I fell asleep or I was just too busy. =/ ALL THE TIMES, WE COULDVE HAD, BUT DIDNT, I REGRET, i regret it because its more memories, we couldve had, but DONT anymore. )= It hurts me, so much. and I just can;t stop, crying anymore. I miss EVERYTHING.

I DONT KNOW WHY, i’m missing so much. Whyd you have to come back in my life? You said youd stay, but why does it feel like you won’t. You always MISS ME FOR THE MOMENT, its NEVER CONSISTENT. EVER. And you can;t keep doing that.. IT KILLS ME. But its my fault for letting you.

Spending time with you on Friday was one of the best times hanging out with you, after we broke up =/ Spending time with you, hurt so bad at the same time though.. Knowing in the back of mind, we’re NOT together anymore. When at some points, it felt like WE were. =/ And then I remembered HER. ): At one point, you looked at me, the way you used to look at me.. Your little smirk on your face. A little grin cause I’m just so weird.. and it hurt, sooo fucking much. Cause you don’t know how the little things you do, makes me miss you even more. The way you held my hand, felt like old times, even though you werent technically holding my hand. You were giving me a long handshake. And what hurt about it is the most, is that. Youre not feeling it the way I am. Thats the reason why I let go quicker and changed the subject.. cause I am not, gonna be the girl that ruins your ” relationship” with someone else. )= Youre killing me aaron, and its like youre not even getting it.

AND PLUS. this whole time we started talking again, you told me you wanted to see me dance. YOU said you wanted to make fun of me and mess me up. YOU constantly told me you would watch me. And at the end, you’re sitting in the back with your girlfriend(yeah, i’ll call her yor girlfriend, might as well get used to it right?) basically cupcaking with her. Getting all touchy feely with her. WITH ME, like roaming around in there. Feeling nervous, or changing, etc. Liek I can;t believe you. AND PLUS. YOU KNOW IT KILLS ME, YOU FUCKING KNOW IT, and it doesn;t even bother you. ONE BIT. =/ Its like you love that I’m hopelessly in love with you, and the fact that you’re talkign to someone else, makes you love doing shit with me around, just so you know. it makes me weak =/ HOW do you have the heart to do this to me. CONSTANTLY.