*sigh. I just wish you were mines. I could be the one to help you stop with your drug shit. Youre just not letting me. I risked everything for you before, no doubt i’ll do the same now.. But look what youre doing to me, you’re killing me. We started talking again, and I was happy. It makes me happy =/ & when you asked me to save you a dance, I was assuming a slow dance.. But i guess >.< Its not why I said no though, I said no, because LOOK AT YOURSELF. You were hella dancing with hella girls. I just didn’t wanna be one of those girls.. I wanna be the only girl. But ugh. Whatever. I figured out what you want, you don;t need to tell me, You dont need to try anymore. I get it, you dont know what you want. You don’t wanna stick to one thing, ME. I feel like im being too easy on you and now youre just taking advantage to me because you know Im always here. AND here i am. Still loving you, helplessly. Youre pushing me away, from really being the girl of your dreams. I sound ridiculous, i know. We’re young, theres more girls out there. Maybe I’m really not the one for you.. =/ Maybe thats what I need to tell myself. But.. I dont wanna stop talking to you. The past few days, ive been happy.. ): but I guess.. We should just be friends. & we shouldn’t try to become anymore than that..

I wanna tell you I love you so much, and sometimes. I wish I can tell you that, I just.. I don’t wanna feel the pain of you not saying it back to me =/